E.M.P.T.Y

EMPTY!!!


my SOUL


my HEART


I am lost~

2008 Highlights

I already finish my intern last november and since then tak berkesempatan nak berbloggie.So here I wanna highlight a my activity after fin my intern..

My besties Convo (zura::cima::me)

Budak-budak band

Congrats Cima on ur big day.Walaupun saya jadi tukang angkat present kamu tapi saya tak kesah sebab kamu kawan baik saya.hehehe.WELL you deserve it setelah bersusah payah wat thesis kamu.hehehe.Lagipun time ni kite da lame sangat tak get together especially ngan budak-budak band.Sangat merindui zaman kolej and Band ;)

During my vacay selepas intern kawan2 Bersamamu called and invited me to the Kenduri at one of the house Family Bersamamu that I have covered during my intern.Family ni tinggal at Banting which dekat jugakla kalau nak follow crew Bersamamamu.That kenduri is sempena siapnya rumah baru keluarga tu.



Lately ni selalu ikut mama g Putrajaya memandangkan mama da jadi so called "House Manager" kat uma Mama Nah.One day ajakla atok yang kebetulan datang KL and Atirah sekali.So me, mama, marissa(my sis), atirah and atok memeriahkan uma mama nah yang kosong itu.Bile da lame2 duduk kat situ me,marissa and atirah bosan tak tau nak watpe so I take my camera and snap2 photo la nagn budak2 tu..




Sampai kepenatan tangkap gamba.hahaha.But it worth it.lalalala~

Bikin apa ya??

Waaaa...
Another 17 days to go intern at TV3..
Nak wat ape pasni??
Kene giat aktif cari kerja lah.
Bosannya..
Gonna miss the time here.


Hushhh!!!

::4.01pm::

Me worried like hell!!

On Sunday morning(19 Oct 08) is my off day.I thought I wanna lepak-lepak at home only memandangkan on Friday i had to work till Saturday morning.I didn't sleep for the whole day so resting at home macam perkara yang paling best la.I wake up at 9am terus turun nak breakfast konon-konon. Then someone had called Aunty Ani talk about accident.Semua terpinga-pinga wondering siapa plak accident ni.Orang yang called tu kalau tak silap nama dia Hassan cakap yang Shamin accident at NKVE Highway.Bila Aunty Ani cakap nama Shamin semua terkejut especially me.My heart beat super duper fast.Tak ingatnya lah. Macam-macam terfikir at that time.Teruk ke dia accident?Macam mana boleh accident?etc..

But i keep my self cool as i can. Take a deep breath. Then berdiskusi dengan Aunty Ani semua nak pergi tengok Min.Kebetulan Uncle Wan nak keluar so dia akan pergi tengok Min which makes me resah gelisah nak ikut.Tapi Aunty kata takpe biar Uncle pergi dulu.Then after that Hassan called balik cakap yang Ambulance is on their way to the accident place.At that time i feel a bit relieved sebab ada juga hamba Allah yang sangat baik nak tolong Min.Mana lah tau kan kadang-kadang kalau someone dah accident dia akan mengambil kesempatan mencuri or biarkan aje Min kat situ sakit-sakit.Thank God he is so lucky.no ones know how i feel at that time.

So sementara tu i waited at home.Tak duduk diam aku dibuatnya.Yang Anis my cousin si cilik tu asyik tanye-tanye pasal abang Shamin dia.Lagilah membuatkan aku sedih sebab yang kecik ni pun sangat concern kat Abang saudara dia.Terharu sebab she has that feeling walaupun die kecik lagi.i keep telling her jangan risau okey, abang Min gonna be just fine.Then she watch back TV with her fav cartoon as like nothing happen.Ketika semua sibuk di dapur sebab sebenarnya nak buat open house that day for Atirah's friends, i duduk di depan TV ngan Anis tapi macam tak tengok pun TV.My mind didn't thinking anything at all. Then Aunty Ani said "Anum, pergi kejut Aiman ajak g hospital tengok min".I said ok then pergi bersiap-siap dengan segera.

Kebetulan Hana ada di rumah, so dia pun join sekali g tengok Shamin at the hospital.Setibanya di hospital we were looking for the emergency ward.Nasib senang nak cari.After park the car kiteorang enter the ward and asked about Shamin.Settle everything pasal registration and baru leh jumpe Min.On the way nak jumpe Min tu terserempak dengan Mama and Syasya(my sis).Tanye punya tanye nurse pesakit nama Shaharul Shamin die bagitau Min g check gigi.Tapi tak tau kat mane.Pastu lame sangat dah tunggu i just called Shamin punya handphone manelah tau kalau-kalau ada orang tolong angkatkan.


Alhamdulillah someone pick up the phone and tell that Shamin is in the minor operation theatre.Kiteorang pun menuju ke tempat itu.Me and mama masuk dengan perasan yang tak tentu arah and curious nak tengok Shamin .But instead kiteorang terkejut tengok Shamin berlumuran darah all over his face and mouth while doctor tengah jahit something.Mengucap banyak-banyak dibuatnya.Me nak nangis at that time tapi tahan je. Be strong because of mama.I dont want her feel so sad.Then the doctor ask us to stay kat luar je while waiting for Shamin.Waited for him like almost for three hours.Perasaan waktu tu tak tenteram lah dibuatnya.Ke sana ke mari.Kulur kilir.While waiting for him i realize that i tak makan lagi dari siang.Waktu tu da pukul 2pm.Dalam keadaan macam tu i dont think i have selera to eat.


Setelah sekian lama Shamin dah selesai di operate.Alhamdulillah Shamin keluar then he cant speak a bit even mulut tak boleh buka besar.But the doctor said petang karang dalam pukul 4 atau 5 nak wat sekali lagi surgery nak letak besi dalam mulut dia.In a meanwhile Min kena transfer kat observation ward. Pity him sebab tak boleh makan dan minum macam biasa.Mulutnya tak boleh buka besar.


According to doctor Shamin had a fractured jaw area dagu.Meaning sangat terbatas lah pergerakan mulut dia memandangkan our mouth are depend on our jaw untuk bergerak kan.So maksudnya kalau rahang dah patah macam mana mulut nak buka lagi kan.So he is struggling so much bila nak makan dan minum.The doctor said kena makan menggunakan straw.Everything you has to use straw. Meaning makanan semua kena yang cair termasukla bubur.It is the hardest part for him.All i can do is support him to move on and kuatkan semangat supaya cepat sembuh.

I tak sampai hati nak makan depan dia sebab kita makan sedap-sedap and kuantiti banyak tapi dia hanya bole makan bubur or sup.Kesian dia.Sementara menunggu operation lagi sekali petang tu Shamin get some rest and tidur.I let him sleep while mama and others balik rumah Aunty Ani makan.I waited him sehinggalah pukul 3.45pm the doctor suruh Min get ready nak masuk operation theathre balik nak operation lagi.I am not sure what the doctor wanted to do this time.I called Momsy supaya datang segera sebab me sooo worried nak tinggal seorang sementara Min masuk buat itu operation.

While waiting like half and hours Shamin friends telefon tanya dimana Shamin and nak jumpe dia.I told them everything then kawan-kawan dia ramai yang datang.Kawan-kawan belajarnya kot.One of the friends siap bawak makanan untuk Shamin lagi.Dahlah masak sendiri.Khas untuk Shamin tapi malangnya i told them Shamin tak boleh makan makanan macam biasa lagi.We waited him sangatlah lama.Mama pun datang dengan Syasya and Aiman.Semua pun tunggu Shamin selesai operation.Sangat baik kawan Shamin semua.Terima kasihlah sebab sanggup datang and tunggu time tu.Dah nak Maghrib macam tu baru Shamin selesai.Me and momsy masuk tengok Shamin sementara nak bawak pergi ward.

At that time Shamin couldnt open his eyes at all.Dia menggigil sangat-sangat sampai menangis sebab sakit sangat.Even the doctor dah bius and all that but he still feel the pain.Deep inside I was crying because i can see that he is such in pain.I never saw him like that.Sangat lama dia menggigil.All i could do is gosok-gosok his lengan only sebab nak pegang tempat-tempat lain takut dia sakit.

Pity him.



*Doakanlah semoga Shamin cepat sembuh.Amin..


::7.47pm::

Kangen Sama Kamu Berdua!!!

I just upload pix of activity during ramadhan.Rupe-rupenya sangatlah banyak gambar sampai macam nak post sume aktiviti ittew.Tapi kene tapis-tapis la nampak gayanya.hehehe.

Tapi yang ni paling penting sebab saya telah berbuka puasa bersama besties merangkap roomies di kolej.Windu kamu la..

Iaitu ZURA dan CIMA...

It all happen secara tak sengaja. One evening sedang duduk lepak di bilik kebetulan hari itu saya bercuti dan tidak tahu mau buat apa.lalalala..

Pastu melayari lah internet mahu mengupdate ape yang patut.That time dah pukul 5 dah.So i pun buka la my friendster.Tetiba I got a comment from my dearly friends ZURA iaitu "hurmmmm...susahnye nak jumpa kamu skang nie kan...." which make me rase sangat bersalah sangat-sangat with my friends.Memandangkan saya sangatlah busy sehinggakan tiada masa mahu hang out bersama rakan terchenta.

After read the comment i terus lah message Cima bertanyakan sama ada dia avaiable or not that evening to break fast together.

Walaupun da lewat she still nak layan kawan die ni untuk berbuka bersama-sama.Thanks Cima.So memandangkan already late saya berbuka puasa di dalam kereta sahaja.Dah tak kesah dah sebab rasa macam kenyang je nak jumpe u ols.heheeh.(i really mean it ok)

Teringat zaman kolej kita selalu keluar makan sama-sama kan.Really miss that part.

Cima kamu sangat lah baik walaupun sangat degil juga.You are so down to earth person.Always be kind to people needed help.Macam saya.hehehe dan sangat blur kekadang tu.


Zura you makes me realizes that our past makes us more matured enough to think ahead.You always guide me whenever i lost.



YOU GUYS ALWAYS LIGHTEN UP MY DAYS ;)



XOXO


::00.49am::

Keep Holding On....

No matter how down we feel
And how much the sadness is real
We are willing to go the way
Even if the goal seems far away

Our aim is clear
And there is nothing to fear
Allah (swt) will help us surely
If we obeyed Him truly

There is nothing so hard
We just have to cross the yard
So let us do what we should
Or try to do what we could

Why not? What else shall we do?
Come on let us drive through and through

Are you happy with what we are?
I'm asking my friends near and far
Don't you think it is enough?
Talking about silly stuff

Isn't it time to wake?
And give more than we take?

I'd leave the answers for you
And wait to see what we'll do…….

::10.32am::

My Raya 08...

I didnt feel like raya sangat this year. Maybe because of tak meriah sangat and definately si shamin tu takde time raya. He is my teman gaduh.So paham-paham je la kan.hehehe.

For me raya dimana-mana sahaja tak best kalau my siblings tak raya together-together.Siblings takda tak lengkap.Even no one in the world nak berhari raya tapi kalau dieorang ni takda macam baik tak payah raya je.That is what i feel.

So the day before raya I get back to papa's house kat Tapah.I arrived after berbuka puasa.Agak lewatlah jugak.(Deep down inside my heart lambat sampai pun takpe terus raya je sok).

Bukan apa, this is all because malas nak berlakon.huhuhu.(for those who dont know buat tak tau je la yeh).

I didnt do so much of the preparation for raya sebab semuanya macam da siap je.hehehe.

Cume dah lewat-lewat malam tu i did sapu-sapu di bahagian ruang tamu.Showing my rajin-ness la kan.But this one tak berlakon ok.hehehe.

Sembang-sembang ngan papa late that nite and ask him whether can I follow them to sembahyang raya tomorrow or not(memandangkan i NEVER go when aidilfitri menjelang).ya..ya..naif me!!!

So I was so SUPER-EXCITED sebab nak sembahyang raya.Kena bangun siap-siap early in the morning.Bukan selama ni tak bangun pagi-pagi raya cuma not so pagi lah.hehehe.

Memandangkan nak kena bangun pagi-pagi so konon-konon masuklah tidur awal(pukul 12 or 1 gakla).I try to sleep.Kalih sane kaleh sini tak tidur-tidur gak.Sangat stress!!

Dah dekat kul 1 lebih still tak boleh tidur.Kebetulan malam raya kan so my HP cant stop berbunyi.Ramai la plak orang sms raya ni sampai full inbox aku.huhuhu.

SMS punya SMS dah sampai pukul 3am.I am trying to get back to sleep tapi malangnya tidak berjaya melelapkan mata juga.I dont know why la I cant sleep.

Semua org da tidur then I dont know nak buat lagi I go watch TV.Entah pape cerita entah lah aku tengok time tu.Layan je la memandangkan dah takleh tidur.Tengok punye tengok sampai terlelap dengan sendirinya.Last tengok jam adalah pukul 4.15am.

Sangat lewat dah tidur.6 am dah bangun balik.For 2 hours only I sleep.I cant believe myself.Maybe excited sangat kot nak g sembahyang raya.huhuhu.

Jadi aktiviti pada hari raya ialah :

1. Sembahyang raya

2. Balik mengadap juadah raya!!

3. Bersalam-salaman bermaaf-maafan & DUIT RAYA (yehaaa!!)

4. Sesi family photo

5. Makan lagi

6. Beraya ngan adik-beradik papa kat Selekoh,Sg.Tiang dan sewaktu dengannya.

7. Makan..Makan..Makan.

8. Berangkat pulang ke CAMERON HIGHLANDS (wuhuhuuu!!)

*finally i dapat story pasal my raya after sekian lama raya berlalu.huhuhu...

::1.19pm::

Hate it!!!

The same old problems every year bile nak raya!!!

Decide nak raya mana dulu..

Whether nak raya rumah papa at Tapah or at Cameron(atok house which i grew up there)???

As for me i prefer to celebrate raya at atok's house kerana disana more extravaganza dan happening.Memandangkan i grew up there(stayed with atok from Darjah Lima until da masuk U ni) so lots of nostalgic part which i think sangat-sangat nak beraya disana.

Misses my room.

Misses atok.

Misses my friends.

Misses the environment(obviously).

Misses cousin yang naugthy ittew.

Damn miss everything!!!

Three weeks before raya my sis will call me and asked : "Anum start cuti bile?cuti berapa hari?nak raya mana dulu?nak raya ngan papa ke tak?"

Banyaklah plak soalan kakak aku ni.

All I can say is : "Emmm entahlah anum cuti tak tau start bila.Tak confirm lagi.I let you know next week ok"


Bila dah next week of cause my sis call me back lah kan nak mengconfirmkan soalan yang minggu lepas.

The answer is still the same which actually I didnt sempat pun nak fikir cuti or whatever kerana sangatlah busy.

Keep myself busy actually.Malas nak fikir all the kekalutan ittew which maybe bagi orang bukan susah pun nak buat keputusan whether nak raya rumah papa or kat cameron.

But for me it is reallly important to decide.Banyak hal lah.Dengan makcik tiri ittew.Tak selesa lah.Muncung aje.Arghh damn tak suka this moment.

Kadang-kadang betul kata Shamin yang dia tak amik cuti this raya because malas nak fikir masalah ni lah.

Same all masalah every year.

Penat!!

So one week before raya is coming by. My sis tetap dengan kerjanya nak memastikan adiknya ini raya bersama.

Akhirnya i told her i got cuti selama 9 hari which already started on Saturday.

Settle one problem.

Nak fikir raya mana plak??

Mencari petunjuk from Yang Maha Esa.

And after diskusi segala we decide to raya at Papa's house first then petang raya pulang ke Cameron.

Malas nak fikir benda-benda yang nonsense ittew.All i'm thinking is Papa.

Boleh tak tetiba terberangan yang "If i got married earlier confirm masalah settle because I will balik kampung my husband"..hahaha..Tapi masalahnya BF pun takde lagi.hahaha..Like whatever lah anum..

Berangan kuat.

*Moral of the story : Nothing in the world could be done easily especially making decision.


::7.24am::

Lil Sweet Celebrations ;)

Well i just found the pix of my birthday.hehehe.sangat-sangatla dah belated iaitu pada 18th August(sangatla dulu kala kan)heeee.

tapi nak tunjuk gak because of the pengorbanan that my bro did iaitu membelanje adiknya ini pada
birthdaynya.

emmm sangat sweet kan??

my besday is on Monday tapi diatas planning yang lambat diberitahu oleh bro dan i already had a plan with my friends on that day so terpaksa la tunda on the next day untuk mencelebratenye.hehehe.

walaupun begitu yang penting bro tetap nak belanja adiknya ini.

sangatla baik.

there is someone yang still remember it makes me feel so happy and bersyukur.

so that nite bro memblanje makan mcd dan juga cake secret recipe.

so this is me and the cake yg chumell ittew.(im not smoking ok.that's my bro stuff)


sangatla koboi cara celebratenye.

nasibla anum yang penting die nak blanje kan.
hahaha.


bro a.k.a shamin yg baik ittew ;)


makan time


samir & lutfi(cousin) yg join skali that nite


cake freak ;p


showing my sayangness.heeee.


thanks to u my dear bro a.k.a wak karmin.hehehe.

simple but sweet.

i loike the way you show your baikness to me and care me so much.

..xoxo..



::1.15am::

Today!!

today...


saya sangat penat dan letih sampai nak nangis.


bulan puasa bulan penuh dengan dugaan.


sentiasa sabar dengan apa yang terjadi hari ini.


anggap ianya sebagai satu dugaan di bulan Ramadhan.


kuatkan semangat untuk meneruskan hari-hari mendatang.


always think positive.


semoga orang-orang yang melakukan kesalahan akan sedar dan sentiasa dirahmati Allah s.w.t.


amin.




::5.54pm::

Berbuka Puasa

baru je pulang berbuka puasa di Royale Bintang hotel kat the Curve tu.makanannya sangatla best dan sedap.makan sampai tak larat kot.hahaha.

anyway kali ni berbuka puasa lain sikit coz berbuka dengan keluarga TV3 iaitu semuanya senior.sangatla kekok dan juga segan.al-maklumla trainee je kan.tak pernah hangout plak ngan akak-akak senior ni.mau tak nye malu-malu kucing.miowww..

Akak-akak senior yang dimaksudkan itu ialah Noraini Tahir(Kak Ani-Producer MHI/Singgah Sahur), Kak Fariha(BJ M3), Kak Irin(BJ M3) dan juga Kak Teh Syuhada(Newsreader/BJ 360).

macam mane bole keluar makan ngan dorang yang tak pernah saya bekerja ini????

macam ni citenye...

Kak Ani itu sebenarnya adalah kawan kepada Aunty Ani aka makcik ku.dorang kenal each other since UiTM lagi.sembang punye sembang Aunty ani pun cakapla yang aku ni sebenarnya anak sedaranya.rupe-rupenye aunty ani call her to invite her and the crew(MHI sepatutnye) untuk buka puasa anjuran company Aunty Ani di Royale Bintang.

to cut short today Kak ani ajaklah kami semua p buka skali.

at least dapatla i get to know them close memandangkan sebelum ni never get a chance pun nak lepak ngan dorang.

thanks to everyone yang sangat supporting itu.

and now sampai kat opis plak nak sambung keje2 editing for TX on MHI tomorrow.


::9.17pm::

Mata Empat????

baru one hour duk ngadap laptop ni tapi my eyes started to pedih-pedih and berair ckit.then macam takleh focus ngan cristal clearnye.apakah??


well am i supposed to wear specs??macam klaka je makcik pakai specs.huahua.i think so.anyway da g check mata da pun kat kedai optical.CONFIRM mmg mataku sudah rabun yang agak tinggi(mata sebelah kanan la paling tinggi).silau pun bole tahan gak.hehehe.

why am i laugh??ntahla.seems klaka je pakai specs.kene la survey2 specs yang macam sesuai dengan ini wajah.aduhai.byk plak nak pikinye.

ape-ape je la anum ;p


::11.53pm::

Last Assignment before Ramadhan

the last assignment before ramadhan menjelang dan juga assignment for the new Season Bersamamu which is Season 13 already.ayaaa..byk sudah program Bersamamu dilakukan kan?


so my next journey is going to Pengkalan Hulu, Perak.30 minutes to border Thailand which we enter on our last day.


basically this new season of bersamamu ade sedikit kelainan which has new Producer(Encik Kamaruza'ain or im calling him abg Zain).Producer lama Kak Ati still ada lagi cume die akan mengendalikan recce for bersamamu dan kerja-kerja lain or we called her as Associate Producer la.

So agak nervous gak to work for the very first time with Abg Zain yang agak famous dalam program Majalah 3 before this.not really know how he work kan.


so its always about getting new experience la kan.after few days get to know him he is not that bad.funny guy and sgt dedicated to his work.respect sama lu la bro.heee.

Assignment kali ini ramai crew-crew yang ikut.best-best.meriah gitu.so the first day sampai terus shoot dengan geng mamat-mamat bawak motor besar which dieorang ni sebenarnya sebuah persatuan yang nak wat charity work as one of their persatuan event.macam tulah lebih kurang.

so the group actually did some gotong-royong and give some donation juga kepada rumah anak yatim ni.

let me show some of the activities that we did there...

::5.56pm::

Jiran Belakang Rumah

i think my neighbour belakang rumah ini sedang main piano la.i always hear it when i open my windows.

terima kaseh kerana menghiburkan saya.i dont know whether the pianist are male or female.tua or muda.melayu,cina,indian atau mat saleh.heeee


but for sure anda sgt pandai berpiano.heeee.im starting to love lagu-lagu classic played with piano.makes me chill and relax.yeah thats rite.

terima kasehla.

selalu la berpiano ye.hehehe.


::10.49pm::

Tersebutla Kesah...

Yayy..setelah sekian lama akhirnya i've got the time nak mengupdate ini bloggie memandangkan today cuti Nuzul Quran.Yayyy!!!dpatla berfikir ngan waras.(bukan tak waras sebelum ni tapi mcm donno how to "mengayat".yup thats the word).heee.


ade la few story nak dicitekan.


walaupun event ni da lama tapi nak story-mory gak.iaitu kenduri at MAMA NAH's house sempena ATOK off to Umrah dan juga kenduri doa selamat for Mama Nah new house di Putrajaya.


the kenduri actually start Maghrib which Solat Maghrib dulu then baca Tahlil and Yassin then Isyak.Malangnya saya telah sampai lambat di sana due to balik kerja lambat dan juga rombongan Cik Kiah from Aunty Ani's house terhegeh-hegeh(Sorry guys.tapi u ols memang lambat pun kan.macam pompuan.wawawa)


oh!by the way i leave with Aunty Ani @ Bandar Utama.


so after Maghrib baru bergerak ke sana which amik masa gakla nak ke sana memandangkan semua unfamiliar with jalan nak ke Putrajaya.so redah je la bak kata Aunty Ani because she's the one yang drive(Uncle Wan tak dapat mengjoinkan diri).


walaupun main belasah je tapi credits to Aunty Ani sebab berjaya mengikut Highway yang baru itu sehingga sampai Putrajaya.Yayy!!


searching for rumah Mama Nah la plak kan.sebenarnya senang je tapi da kalut lambat kan macam jauh je la rase nak sampai.hahaha.


anyway these are few gambar yang berjaya disnap-snap oleh photographer aka Abangku(Boy) sebelum we get there.time kaseh la encik photographer.heeee.

Solat Maghrib


Unc Amir said something before baca Yassin



Si kecik nyebok ;p


Nanny to be ;)


Aunty Lina, Mama Nah & Aunty La tgu guests


Solat Isyak



Tak menang tangan ye Cik Cham.Chumell ;)



Bile da jumpe tu kan!!!


Ada yang tak sabor nak makan plak.heee ;)

alritey.bile da bis makan we were planning something for atok.hehehe.so everyone lepak di dalam rumah.sembang punye sembang la konon.



then...



surprise...

happy 79th birthday atok.strong and steady.love you always.xoxo ;)